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Oh, joy...
Oct. 4th, 2005 04:00 pmI wrote my first ever suicide fic. It needed to be written for one of my RP characters, so I guess that makes it original fiction.
Can't say it made me feel any better though. I will never play KULT again.
And, I will certainly never waste time, effort and imagination on a character ever again, the way I did with this one. It's not worth it, not by a long shot.
If you go the distance with a character in your effort to make it seem as real as possible only to be fucked over in-game (which I don't really mind, if there weren't for people crossing so many lines I can't even begin to count them), and then end up being fucked over in real life as well... Why bother?
I don't need to feel like a retard because I disagree with the way people behave, yet I do, because people don't get why I'm so pissed off. Then again, why should anyone bother to even try to understand? I'm the bitch that can't stop bitching, remember?
I hate KULT. Never thought I would write it, think it, say it, whatever. I hate KULT.
Can't say it made me feel any better though. I will never play KULT again.
And, I will certainly never waste time, effort and imagination on a character ever again, the way I did with this one. It's not worth it, not by a long shot.
If you go the distance with a character in your effort to make it seem as real as possible only to be fucked over in-game (which I don't really mind, if there weren't for people crossing so many lines I can't even begin to count them), and then end up being fucked over in real life as well... Why bother?
I don't need to feel like a retard because I disagree with the way people behave, yet I do, because people don't get why I'm so pissed off. Then again, why should anyone bother to even try to understand? I'm the bitch that can't stop bitching, remember?
I hate KULT. Never thought I would write it, think it, say it, whatever. I hate KULT.
